6 days to go...

finally... paul has left the land that was almost hit by a tsunami... its a strange feeling having him leave the place. all my four years studying overseas... home was the place where his face was so familiar. everytime i am home, he's one of the faces i aspect to see... but now... its all different. i worry and wonder how he's doing taking care of himself... unsure what goes in his mind... if it was me going off... things would be easier coz i know what i think... but for him i cant do that but to just hope for the best...

Finally! that old man's dead... after all those years... i thought he would never die... being around almost for 4-5 architectural generations. to think after all those years... he'd die at 98 years old... Philip Johnson... the spineless architect... ever changing to the seasons... he was never really in one of the architectural eras... only played a mediating role... from the International Style to the Post Modern... to the Deconstruction... up till the second modernity... he'd always been around. goes wherever the money goes... even side the nazi's when they tried to take over the world... people still respect him... for his money that is. i guess without him all these architectural movements would never be heard of... with all that cash... it had to go somewhere... and thank goodness it all went to architectectural spendings instead of baby powder...

the nearness... of the freakin' New Year...

i believe a few have been offended by the language... but anyways... everything thing is still running very clearly in my mind... my relationship towards GT hangs on a thin line... every few minutes the thought of how i was screwed just rushes up to my brain.... just like blood rushing to my brain ready to explode. so tragic... but at the same time so pathetic i can be because of this situation... darn "adult christians"...
and on top of that... the festive season ain't helping much... ah yes... Chinese New Year... among all the most hated festive season for me... well last time i use to love it for the holidays... and fireworks... but other than that... its aweful... the decos... the characters... the superstitions... and most of all the music... the horrible terribly horrendous sounds... "guo xing nien... nien, nien, nien..." arghhh... i NIEN you than you know!! (btw, nien could also mean- strangle) but anyway... its aweful... everywhere i go... every where i am... the music just cant stop... its so irritating.. so annoying... you should watch some of those new year mtvs... lil kids with their heavy make ups, tryiing to run off being an adult(why would they wanna do that), lip syncing... acting oh so cute... with their overly makeup smiles... and the lousy adults... with their terrible acting skills... so lame... every year... the same ol bunch... probably the national tv station only has those few VCDs in their collection... even they know its not worth it to buy too much of it...
and the ang paos... oh pls... me being a non-materialistic person couldnt care less... (and lucifer stands right behind me saying.. "i'm sure you are..." in his usual sarcasm gestures)
its been a long day... wanted to swing some golf balls... but heaven forbit me to do htat... its just too dangerous... me being in a driving range with all those adults holding a 7 iron... it'll be a total massacre... a game of bloody golf... with them bloody golfers... i wont be able to aim for the green... instead black or white grass... and occasional bald spots... ugh...

achieving Nirvana... at Low's Peak...

just came down from the mountain... and it was a piece of cake... cept for the blisters... caused by the shoe... a shoe which cost RM4... freakin cheap.. but good to go up hill... however down was the other problem. on the whole it was awesome... wait till i post up the pics. man i tell... ont he way up the hostel in car... all i could think about was that no good piece of mother f*cker... (i'm refering to the boy's father)... he's the real shit behind all this complications. i've never met such a worthless dumb shitty mother f*cker... all his f*ckin' bullshit alll flying around aimlessly... can't get a grip on what the f*ck he was saying... i've seen and met alot of shitty adults.. but this one's a f*ckin' winner... redundancy shit i tell you. you know... this all confirms it all on the 3 people i hate most... so called "christians", adults... and the worse of it all "adult christians"... dont' pay no respect to students like me... the conversation on the phone is still ringing in my head... mother f*cker insulted bout me going to be an architect... saying i'm in the wrong... im'ma cheating on his f*ckin' money.. worst yet.. tell me about God... all you shitty GT f*ckers... using God to defend yourselves... F*ck you!! f*ckin' hippocrites...
mother f*cker's first excuse... he didnt know it was a shared room... second excuse, it's all dr sumi's fault... third excuse, what if my son cant get along... fourth excuse, heard your area is a red light district area, ... then the f*cker blabs on how f*ckin rich he is... so redundant... if you're so f*ckin rich.. then why not just pay me the freakin money. and i insulted him with the word cheat... at that time, it slipped out of my mouth... but now... i f*ckin' mean it!! honorable man my f*ckin ass... calling me a rip off... im calculating the bastard 6 months minimum and he says im playing with his cash... im'ma tell you, you son of a b*tch... u messed up my whole scheme... im gonna f*ck up your son... telling me i aint got no blessings from God... and i cant make it as an architect... you puk*mak b*tch. because of your f*ckin son... i turn down an offer to another one bedroom apartment... work the shit (including the people who help me) out finding a place for your f*ckin wussy spineless son... his balls all chopped off by you eh? mother f*cker... wasted all my overseas call for you... paid you're f*ckin share... and now you want to run away... aint got nothing to lose eh? kiss my ass... you dick head... aint got no brain... only talk shit and God in GT... f*ck GT... i got away once... and came back... idiot i am... now i know why i stop going there... coz theres just too much pricks and hippocrites... using God's name for every f*ckin reason... im stickin the finger at you all... and all the other christian organizations... (sorry im turning this into a larger contexts...) but GT is really begining to suck.

man... i was gonna talk about my Mt. Trip... end up talking about this... what a waste of my effort... i am so freakin' tired...