A Hymne to God the Father

Wilt thou forgive that sinne where I begunne,
which is my sin, though it were done before?
Wilt thou forgive those sinnes through which I runne,
And doe them still: though still I do deplore?
When thou hast done, thou hast not done,
For, I have more.

Wilt thou forgive that sinne by which i wonne
Others to sinne? and, made my sinne their doore?
Wilt thou forgive that sinne which I did shunne
A yeare, or two: but wallowed in, a score?
When thou hast done, thou hast not done,
For, I have more.

I have a sinne of feare, that when I have spunne
My last thred, I shall perish on the shore;
Sweare by thy selfe, that at my death thy Sunne
Shall shine as it shines now, and heretofore;
And, having done that, Thou hast done,
I have no more.

- John Donne

been reading poetry from john donne lately. haha. half the time i have not a clue what he's saying. but the ones that i do, i think its lovely. so true. so real. so jaded.
i'm getting sleepy and i have to wake up before 10 tomorrow. and i've been waiting already for about an hour to take my shower. my housemates are really slow. and tony's portugese gal has a creepy stare. she smiles friendly yet she wants to eat you.

learning how to stand is why you fall...

its wednesday the first week of the break. man, having hair is so troublesome. what the heck am i supposed to do with it?! but girls dig hair. makes you look more human. and i've a lil zit between my eyebrows. mind you im not metrosexual nor am i vain. its what they call personal hygene.

anyway, later im going over to the studio to see my tutor. i only managed to whip up 2 different proposal. i dont know exactly how many he wanted when he told me to create alternatives. sigh. i wish i could finalized my friggin building then i can go off to doing my plans and sections etc. then later on to meet my groupmate for Adv Services- assignment 2. ugh. i hate ESD!! its totally a bunch of nonsense. archi students just love to use that as an excuse to their design intentions. then they go about designing all these weird buildings claiming that its for "Environmentally Sustainable" purposes. thats just a euphamism. just 10% for 2 A3 sheets of research. waste of time.
tonight, dinner with my ltc group. i still have no idea what to bring! hmmm. probably just get them greentea swissroles or maybe icecream. and i am going to miss this weeks episode of HOUSE!! oh no. the first break of my watching streak. wonder whats this weeks episode about. trying to remember last weeks preview for this week. i know someone is going to be terribly ill i think. doh.

i've been thinking about it last night. and realized that its about time i let go of the group. let them run around on their own. there isnt a strong reason why we should help keep the bond together. they will get their way around strengthening it themselves i supposed. all i'll keep is an open door. or maybe just ajar. whatever suits.

im staring at jon's basketball. and i really dont know what to do with it. i do really wanna play with it, but the courts are just so far away. and who the heck is gonna play with me. actually i dont really bother who but if only the basketball court was 200meters away, i'd be shooting hoops everyday. maybe i should go swimming later. argh!

i'm spiderman...

tired... going to bed

its funny how much information this picture can give away.

a sauna is always refreshing. its amazing how in just one day i managed to burnt out over 200 of calories. too bad it'll probably be gain back tomorrow. sigh.

obsession...

theres a price to pay for everything. for instance junkfood/cookies/icecream. everytime i consume one of those buggers, i'd have to sweat it out just to keep a complete balance of my body weight(then again, its not like i do it anyway). but! now with EasySlim i can eat all the junk i want AND still stay in shape at the SAME time. wonderful! plus i would like to think its simultaneous. (i've realized that i cant stop talking about this easyslim thing...) i love Malt biscuits... absolutely MALTILICIOUS!! *crunch*

and for tonight, ive got marinated beef in the fridge. AND i've found a new way to poach my chicken with stock. im thinking if i should invite Chialit over for dinner. hmmm. maybe not. i'd prefer to keep all the food to myself thank you. and theres HOUSE today. now i see why porterHOUSE steaks are called porterhouse steaks. cows just love dr HOUSE. well i do!
so what should i do with the greens... what would happened if i baked the bakchoi? eeww.

reminders: School fees. ehehe. oops. and the gas bill. if only i'd remembered yesterday.

reorientating the Fengshui...

i decided to go for the IP thing on tuesday. reason probably was curiosity, like what the heck do they do over there. and i felt that it be best if i check it out for myself just to have some insight since one of my cell member might be taking up as prayer coordinator. atleast i would know the scope he be dealing with. interesting, it was like a therapy session. everyone was seated in a circle and the person in-charge sat on a higher chair with her legs crossed with a pen and notebook. and as they were going around sharing, she would be nodding her head while jotting down notes. haha. im thinking- AngerManagement. the main prayer theme today was on leadership breakthrough or something like that, as Jolyn insists the more personal the better. seeing how things went, i predicted that it would probably last for hours. i felt bad leaving early actually. quite early in fact, plus the fact i was 10 minutes late. hehe. surprisingly it was a small group. 12 people excluding me. and out of that only 3 guys (excluding me). i see what they meant by there are no men around to plow away the snow from the road. and how the only sortofseniority around would be yours truly- Nigel.

other events: Ah Han is still in search for a girlfriend. apparently he's getting pretty desperate. haha. still not desperate enough to go for the immediate availables yet. tsk tsk. and Joy has a crush on one of my design studio groupmate who sat right behind her during Services lecture. tsk tsk. i can see why she likes him. they both wear black framed glasses. ah! the good old 70's.

i've decided to try out mode P9 (on the easyslim gadget) today to see how it feels like. okay. that was abit redundant and technically nobody should be hearing about this. AAaaaaHHhhh...

it might as well be spring...

decided to drop a few words before i leave for Uni. my room is a mess! its all scattered with clothes, papers, books, cds, etc. i should get to cleaning it before the retreat. these few days i've been feeling jazzy. it probably started after watching paul giamachi sing TryALittleTenderness in Duets, followed by stacey kent on Richard III. oh yeah.
besides feeling so jazzy in a melancholy way. i also have this deep urge to beat someone up. i'm beginning to agree on Jun's suggestion. its like if i ever get to see this person, i'll trip the bugger flat on his face. then he would have to get up and let me trip him flat on his back as well. haha.

its week 8 (i think), and its time to double up on the engine. things to push on.
1. Design
2. Essay (Postcolonial studies)
3. Assignment 2 (Adv Services)

also, i've moved away from the losing weight w vigorous activities therapy to man's eureka! technology. i'm now on this Easy slim electric cruncher/ situps gadget. 15 crunches in 30 minutes. haha.

other news. Federer took home the USOPEN trophy yet again. his 6th grandslam. haha. i actually thought Agassi would had taken this one home. a dream too impossible to come true. he managed to cruise right into the final, but sigh. thats probably the furthest he'll ever get. too old. and not as talented as Sampras. he should just retire, and continue his winning streak in the senior circuit.
and now the typhoon has headed south to China. gosh! this is so scary. hope thats as far it would go. apparently rumours had it that Malaysia could be a potential victim. touch wood! touch wood! even the terrorist cant beat that.

okay, i think i'll clean up my room today.

the lost city... N.O.

Order, Huh
Yo...We at war
We at war with terrorism...racism...but most of all we at war with ourselves
(Jesus Walks)
God show me the way because the Devil's tryin' to break me down
(Jesus Walks with me, with me, with me, with me, with me)
You know what the Midwest is?
Young & Restless
Where restless n*ggas might snatch ya necklace
And next these n*ggas might jack ya Lexus
Somebody tell these n*ggas who Kanye West is
I walk through the valley of Chi where death is
Top floor of the view alone will leave you breathless- Uhhhh!
Try to catch it- Uhhhh!- it's kinda hard
Getting choked by detectives- yeah, yeah- now check the method
They be asking us questions, harass, and arrest us
Saying "We eat pieces of sh*t like you for breakfast!"
Huh?! Y'all eat pieces of sh*t? What's the basis?
We ain't goin' nowhere, but got suits and cases
A trunk full of coke- rental car from Avis
My Mama used to say only Jesus can save us
Well Mama, I know I act a fool
But I'll be gone 'til November, I got packs to move- I hope
(Jesus Walks)
God show me the way because the Devil's tryin' to break me down
(Jesus Walks with me)
The only thing that I pray is that my feet don't fail me now (I want Jesus)
(Jesus Walks)
And I don't think there is nothing I can do now to right my wrongs
(Jesus Walks with me)
I want to talk to God, but I'm afraid because we ain't spoke in so long
(I want Jesus)
God show me the way because the Devil's tryin' to break me down
The only thing that I pray is that my feet don't fail me now
And I don't think there is nothing I can do now to right my wrongs
I want to talk to God, but I'm afraid because we ain't spoke in so long...so long
So long
(Jesus Walks with me...fades)
To the hustlas, killers, murderers, drug dealers even the strippers
(Jesus walks for them)
To the victims of Welfare for we living in hell here hell yeah
(Jesus walks for them)
Now hear ye hear ye want to see Thee more clearly
I know He hear me when my feet get weary
Cuz we're the almost nearly extinct
We rappers are role models- we rap we don't think
I ain't here to argue about his facial features
Or here to convert atheists into believers
I'm just trying to say the way school need teachers
The way Kathie Lee needed Regis that's the way I need Jesus
So here go my single dawg radio needs this
They said you can rap about anything except for Jesus
That means guns, sex, lies, video tape
But if I talk about God my record won't get played
Huh?
Well let this take away from my spins
Which will probably take away from my ends
Then I hope this take away from my sins
And bring the day that I'm dreaming about
Next time I'm in the club everybody screaming out
(Jesus Walks)
God show me the way because the devil trying to break me down
(Jesus Walks with me, with me, with me) fades)
The only thing that I pray is that me feet don't fail me now
-kanye west

i go absolutely mellow, everytime i listen to this.

if christians cant take criticism like ordinary people. then why the heck go for missions. why bother pray to be like Him. why mingle with the so called brothers and sisters in Christ. why preach the gospel. why bother reaching out when obviously they cant even stand on their own 2 feet when poked by a mere needle. why bother to encourage when all it does is delude. why would a non-believer think he should be one if he finds out he be spineless. why say you love Jesus when you dont even want to receive love from a fellow in Christ. why bother serving when you dont intend to learn. i sometimes am embarrass to be part of it. humans be humans. dont judge, thats plain sick. its true, we arent worth a single scent of His glory. why do we bother so much of ourselves? when really, Katrina wiped out a whole city. wheres the wrong in that? whos to blame? what can be criticized? who doesnt deserve to be there? why. who cares? does your heart ache? please dont lie. sadly mine doesnt.

supporting photos...

the interior


the boulevard that actually works


they were going on the right track


until this came along...

Merdeka... 7 times (a leper's remedy)

week 7. went to watch CharlieandtheChocolateFactory yesterday and it was hilarious! that in retrospective was the only Roald Dahl book i've finished. i had never been able to finish a whole book by the author due to fact that it gradually gets boring in my oppinion. however i can strictly remember that it was right after i read the part when Willy Wonka offered Charlie to try his delicious Hot Chocolate was when i couldnt put the book down. aHHhhhhHhh. however that scene always cease to dissapoint me when its reinterpreted into the movies. but! i must grab hold of the soundtrack. the songs are just so darn spastic and funny. i would agree with jm that the kids in this remake of the movie are far more irritating and obnoxious compared to the original one. and johnny depp is so GAY/ FAGGOTY. cant wait till the premier of the CORPSE BRIDE. its been months since i've gone for a movie with jm only. we couldnt even recall when was it exactly. hITCHhIKERSgUIDEtOtHEgALAXY sprungs into mind.

i enjoy reading the older issues of Majalah Arkitek very much. its just far more informative and critical in its topics. unlike the current one which just a collage of pretty pictures and bias writtings. the truth must be told! Architecture in Malaysia is in need of serious improvement.
was reading the '86 issue the other day regarding Central Market (a.k.a Cultural Market) in Old Town being the first major adaptive reuse project in the country. and realizing how the government can be so dumb to ever consider demolishing the building. to me Central Market until now is one of the most workable urban spaces in KL. ive been there twice myself and i absolutely love the place. its not something you see often around in KL or even in the whole of M'sia. looking back im really thankful for those people who really fought for the place, plus abit of luck as well in the economy. thank God there was the 1980s, the era of conservation. i insist everyyone, to visit the place whenever they're in KL. the energy there is just so splendid. KL has a real potential to be a pedestrian oriented place. and it will work. JKR should start picking up a Jane Jacobs book to read. and Anjung Selera/ Gaya Street or even Damai Plaza should start learning a thing or two from Central Market. i should really publish my "mat rock" theory into the MA.
other things i found out by reading the MA. Dato Kington Loo was a fellow Graduate from the University of Melbourne. beginning to see the similarities. LeCorb fanatics.

im writing a paper for my postcolonial studies on Petaling Street (chinatown). initially was intended to praise in the way it was run compared with the other globalized kitsh chinatowns in the world. however when i found out that they had plunge in one of those cliche arches at the entrance, i became irritatingly annoyed and decided to write the opposite.
sigh. theCultureofDisappearance. sigh. or more like, theDisappearanceofModernAuthenticity. sigh.