thank god its friday...

finally managed to finish and sent out my minutes and i'm ready for bed. it was a painful process having to work on my aging laptop. everything is a minute slow and the program keeps shutting itself down. sigh. yet again even more reasons why i should upgrade my mac. should i wait a little longer or just go for the kill? these days i rarely use my computer to work. but given the current new circumstances i might have to. word documents are but minor problems that i can endure using my laptop. but its the 3d modeling and photoshopping etc that would be a nightmare.

was pulled in to help out on the labrador competition at the very last minute. as usual the bosses have no sense of time management and neglected the work until the very last minute. in the end the rest of us have to suffer. i seriously do not like working pass 12am these days. having worked till 3am the night before definitely does not make going through the next day very pleasant. surprisingly theres jsut so much work to be done. i almost forgot that the world is in a global recession. its good that we are still busy. but at the same time unfair for us being constantly threaten to work hard because the bosses never ceased to stop reminding us of our dispensable state. talk about being appreciated.

now that thats over, the next 3 weeks i'm pulled in for another competition. apparently i'm the diagram expert. i am pretty anal about diagrams. i dont mind doing the work when theres a clear direction and the boss makes quick and concise decisions. having 2 years of working on competitions, we've learn how to manage the boss, unfortunately he has not learn how to handle the pressure and situations.

today on the way home. my colleague and i had a discussion about the office and our plans for the next phase in our career. both agreed that we eventually want to set out and do our own thing. we hate having to take orders from people and its definitely something we would not want to spend the rest of lifes in. when i say "thing" it can mean many different things. but of course the main "thing" specifically during the conversation was about starting our own practice. we both agreed that we shouldnt stay in this current office too long. even though the experience and exposure working in this office is exponential (2 years of working in the office is apparently 4 years working elsewhere), after a while will feel stagnant in our careers and become complacent in our architectural drive. given that the office has a very draconian boss we are forced to rely on them wholly. i am worried that might not have sufficient tools and capabilities to sell myself elsewhere. but he said that we would never know our full potential until we leave our current office given the very nature that the bosses have a way of making us feel very small and incompetent without them.

i am beginning to feel rather jaded in the company. not because of the work but of the bosses BS ethics and way of running the office. we have to admit the management is not super fantastic. i realise that most of us are just waiting to be sacked or retrench. because that would speed up the whole resignation process. a normal resignation would require a months notice in advance and normally the final month at the office is not very pleasant. the bosses tend to get personal and hateful towards those who are resigning. plus we have to go through the painful handover process. the more i think about it the more irritated i feel.

the reason i'm still here apart from the stupid recession is the current work im handling. i hope to finish up both of my tender documentation. that would really bulk up my already relatively impressive portfolio.

sigh... so we're just waiting on the world to change. unfortunately not to the way we hope it would be.

merry christmas mr lawrence...

finally i'm hooked in and ready to go. plenty of internet glitches on the first day unfortunately. such a nuisance. i totally forgot how to use my laptop. having internet at home is rather strange to me.

i manage to get hold of the complete dischography of Ryuichi Sakamoto's music. such a great master. must lispect ol grit masta. arigato. sayonara. suzuki. toyota. hait! i have much to learn-doh.

cold noodles at SaeHoon's new place last night. delicious-doh. so honored to have him whip up his best dish for the guest of honor. arigato. and hari's belly is humongous! can't believe they are soon to be parents in just a matter of weeks. scary. i hope i can be at the hospital to see the action. i can volunter to be the designated camera man. even though my skills are lousy. just hope he's not OT-ing when the baby decides to pop out.
Hari was showing me her little baby journal. she actually made a chronology of the whole 9 months. she even drew little sketches of her soon to be baby in section and a picture of her stomach being kicked by the baby. I think sae hoon is just plain worried from now onwards. such a scary thought. soon enough they will not be able to hang out with me much anymore. sigh.
Then she showed me photos of their italy holiday. well it was her visit to italy while he was studying. after the whole trip. Saehoon made a little photo book album. they are so in love. i especially like the ending photos at the airport as her trip was coming to an end. their eyes were sore red. tragic.

had lunch with my former landscape arch for duchess today. i have not seen her since she left her previous firm. atleast she looks less grumpy as compared to back then. haha. we're planning a trip to HK. guess i wont be seeing me sister in May if it materialises. tsk tsk. sorry sis. just so you know atleast you was on my mind as one of the getaway plan.

after last night. i have decided that i will marry the girl who plays 'merry christmas mr lawrence' on the piano. beautiful song.

its close to 1am. pass my bedtime.

thinking...

its a rainy saturday afternoon. the morning was pleasant despite i was struggling to open my tired eyes from last nights kay's farewell outing. its so sad to see her go. i will miss her phone calls with her cantankerous contractor.

after dropping by at work in the afternoon. i decided to pay the national museum a visit. my first trip for the year. the Christian Lacroix exhibit was on displaying his stage costume designs. the place was flooded with young girls armed with their cameras taking every sketch and dress piece. they must be young fashion designer students. just take photo and copy the style first.

sigh. after the going through the exhibit i heaved a deep sigh of despair, yearn, and anxiety. i want try out stage set designing. i am still very disturbed by the set design for the nutcracker ballet. yuk.

oh well, perhaps as soon as i complete my next set of tender documents will things start to open up. haha.

lunch at SH's new place tomorrow. hopefully his wife's swollen eye would be healed by then. korean cold noodles.

i wonder if they would make a movie out of Kafka on the shore. not jap anime style please.

i have this sudden love for radiohead and beyonce's - i am sasha...

i'm on MC...

its a rainy monday. im officially zonked out and fatigued to the bones. hence a monday off would hopefully rejuvenate things.

it was rather strange seeing ChingLing taking the plunged into the world of marriage life. but besides seeing her giving herself to some stranger, the 7 year hiatus reunion was good. its amazing how after 7 years none of us really changed. so when will we see each other again? probably the next wedding. i'm guessing it'll be an annual thing? i dunno. everyones getting older.

sitting on the other side of the fence...

home office... and beer bellies.

so much paper work to do!! i seriously have to consider internet service at home... sigh.