6 days to go...

finally... paul has left the land that was almost hit by a tsunami... its a strange feeling having him leave the place. all my four years studying overseas... home was the place where his face was so familiar. everytime i am home, he's one of the faces i aspect to see... but now... its all different. i worry and wonder how he's doing taking care of himself... unsure what goes in his mind... if it was me going off... things would be easier coz i know what i think... but for him i cant do that but to just hope for the best...

Finally! that old man's dead... after all those years... i thought he would never die... being around almost for 4-5 architectural generations. to think after all those years... he'd die at 98 years old... Philip Johnson... the spineless architect... ever changing to the seasons... he was never really in one of the architectural eras... only played a mediating role... from the International Style to the Post Modern... to the Deconstruction... up till the second modernity... he'd always been around. goes wherever the money goes... even side the nazi's when they tried to take over the world... people still respect him... for his money that is. i guess without him all these architectural movements would never be heard of... with all that cash... it had to go somewhere... and thank goodness it all went to architectectural spendings instead of baby powder...

the nearness... of the freakin' New Year...

i believe a few have been offended by the language... but anyways... everything thing is still running very clearly in my mind... my relationship towards GT hangs on a thin line... every few minutes the thought of how i was screwed just rushes up to my brain.... just like blood rushing to my brain ready to explode. so tragic... but at the same time so pathetic i can be because of this situation... darn "adult christians"...
and on top of that... the festive season ain't helping much... ah yes... Chinese New Year... among all the most hated festive season for me... well last time i use to love it for the holidays... and fireworks... but other than that... its aweful... the decos... the characters... the superstitions... and most of all the music... the horrible terribly horrendous sounds... "guo xing nien... nien, nien, nien..." arghhh... i NIEN you than you know!! (btw, nien could also mean- strangle) but anyway... its aweful... everywhere i go... every where i am... the music just cant stop... its so irritating.. so annoying... you should watch some of those new year mtvs... lil kids with their heavy make ups, tryiing to run off being an adult(why would they wanna do that), lip syncing... acting oh so cute... with their overly makeup smiles... and the lousy adults... with their terrible acting skills... so lame... every year... the same ol bunch... probably the national tv station only has those few VCDs in their collection... even they know its not worth it to buy too much of it...
and the ang paos... oh pls... me being a non-materialistic person couldnt care less... (and lucifer stands right behind me saying.. "i'm sure you are..." in his usual sarcasm gestures)
its been a long day... wanted to swing some golf balls... but heaven forbit me to do htat... its just too dangerous... me being in a driving range with all those adults holding a 7 iron... it'll be a total massacre... a game of bloody golf... with them bloody golfers... i wont be able to aim for the green... instead black or white grass... and occasional bald spots... ugh...

achieving Nirvana... at Low's Peak...

just came down from the mountain... and it was a piece of cake... cept for the blisters... caused by the shoe... a shoe which cost RM4... freakin cheap.. but good to go up hill... however down was the other problem. on the whole it was awesome... wait till i post up the pics. man i tell... ont he way up the hostel in car... all i could think about was that no good piece of mother f*cker... (i'm refering to the boy's father)... he's the real shit behind all this complications. i've never met such a worthless dumb shitty mother f*cker... all his f*ckin' bullshit alll flying around aimlessly... can't get a grip on what the f*ck he was saying... i've seen and met alot of shitty adults.. but this one's a f*ckin' winner... redundancy shit i tell you. you know... this all confirms it all on the 3 people i hate most... so called "christians", adults... and the worse of it all "adult christians"... dont' pay no respect to students like me... the conversation on the phone is still ringing in my head... mother f*cker insulted bout me going to be an architect... saying i'm in the wrong... im'ma cheating on his f*ckin' money.. worst yet.. tell me about God... all you shitty GT f*ckers... using God to defend yourselves... F*ck you!! f*ckin' hippocrites...
mother f*cker's first excuse... he didnt know it was a shared room... second excuse, it's all dr sumi's fault... third excuse, what if my son cant get along... fourth excuse, heard your area is a red light district area, ... then the f*cker blabs on how f*ckin rich he is... so redundant... if you're so f*ckin rich.. then why not just pay me the freakin money. and i insulted him with the word cheat... at that time, it slipped out of my mouth... but now... i f*ckin' mean it!! honorable man my f*ckin ass... calling me a rip off... im calculating the bastard 6 months minimum and he says im playing with his cash... im'ma tell you, you son of a b*tch... u messed up my whole scheme... im gonna f*ck up your son... telling me i aint got no blessings from God... and i cant make it as an architect... you puk*mak b*tch. because of your f*ckin son... i turn down an offer to another one bedroom apartment... work the shit (including the people who help me) out finding a place for your f*ckin wussy spineless son... his balls all chopped off by you eh? mother f*cker... wasted all my overseas call for you... paid you're f*ckin share... and now you want to run away... aint got nothing to lose eh? kiss my ass... you dick head... aint got no brain... only talk shit and God in GT... f*ck GT... i got away once... and came back... idiot i am... now i know why i stop going there... coz theres just too much pricks and hippocrites... using God's name for every f*ckin reason... im stickin the finger at you all... and all the other christian organizations... (sorry im turning this into a larger contexts...) but GT is really begining to suck.

man... i was gonna talk about my Mt. Trip... end up talking about this... what a waste of my effort... i am so freakin' tired...

Screwed...

this morning... the first thought in my head was that now im really totally screwed!! never been so pissed in the early mornings... i figured GT people never takes me seriously eh... i rushed to settle this accomodation because of a boy... along the way in finding tenants i ended up promising 2 more other folks to get an accomodation... then i had to try my best to convince the two tenants to stay with me... all because i promised a boy that i'll make sure of his accomodation. i took nearly 2 months trying to get accomodation... all because i promised all three including that boy that i'll get the place. with lots of help... finally managed to get a place... paid for the boys share... and thought all is settled... managed to get a pretty big place... so the boy can have ample space to run around... way below his budget.
and after everything has settled down... finally he sends his dad to say he's sorry but he has to back off from this... due to some stupid reason... "i must screw you... thanks but no thanks... eat your own shit... haha". i cant afford to pay that rent... how am i gonna find another person to share a room... i cant just find any tom, dick or harry... AUD740 per month?!?!? thats around 2100 ringgit per month... how the heck can i afford that?!?!?!
sorry but i have to say this... for the moment... GT people only know how to talk SHIT... im too lazy to further elaborate on hwat i meant... but im starting to learn a very valueble lesson...
ANYWAY, other news.... my industrial trainning period had just ended... it had been a great 7 weeks... (still cant help thinking about how screwed i am right now...)

a rose is a mose... coz it rhymes with NOSE(y)...

what the heck is a "Boo"... apparently its the newest slang in the music industry/ whatever... a boo? sounds like the word Boo! when u scare someone... more like a ghost... then as well to mean it might mean a bruise or cut... like you et a boo- boo when you fall down and scraped your knee or somehting... anyway... so if it does really represent either... then thats pretty funny... go figure
hahha... managed to get hold of another victim's personal belonging... interesting i should say... kekek...

Farewell... to 3 years of hardship and fun... archi for life!

sigh... the long day/ weekend is finally over... i tell you, working in an archi firm can be pretty stressful... especially when you have to try and please 2 different bosses out from the same project having different ideas and requirements... ugh... but it's still fun.
been trying to upload my pictures from my first project i did here for my industrial training... alas.. the faultiness of dial-ups... just can't wait for broadband to arrive... with fingers crossed... it might be soon. i can say that i'm pretty fortunate to be doing these sort of things during industrial training... lots of designing work... and no draughting and office boy errands for me...
my first project was this high class housing development, set in the lovely small island off the sabah shores... pretty cool eh? i think the client kindda goes with my idea... hopefully it be built and be just what i wanted... then again theres lots of alteration to be done by the seniors... atleast hopefully the aesthetic is there... then it be living proof for my future reference.
currently i've been assign to this new project... its a commercial project set right in between Sabah's currently biggest supermarket... its sort of a commercial/ office building... pretty cool.. but very tight... so hard to squeeze everything into one plot of land... adding to the by-laws we need to follow... for a 1.2 acre land.. they want futsal courts... cineplexes... a food court... retail areas... and offices... not to mention... car parks (the most irritating part in designs..), i had trouble during the first project... carparks as well... everything worked pretty okay... till carparks became a hassle... especially if it where to be incorporated into the building as well... ugh! why dont people jsut walk... Oops... that goes for me too... hehe.

anyway... i think i better go hit the showers... and hit the sack!!

200...5

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! 2 0 0 ... 5!!! awesome dude!! im finally a year wiser... and not a single grey hair to be seen... amazing!!
threw a mini get together party with a couple of good friends... though i wish... another from our lovely neighbouring country could be here... nonetheless it was fun. havent had good grog and gossips for awhile... old times... bad times... MIA from each other experiences... etc. and to my surprise... people in the group has changed tremendously... Ben... so... different... okay ladys... he's up for grabs... hottest bachelor around... 21 years old... height 6'10"... well built... nicely tanned... cool personality... mom owns a superb chicken marinate sauce for BBQ... with a bonus... sexy ass... haha... seriously!

anyway, here's to all you folks reading this...

We wish you a happy new year
we wish you a happy new year
we wish you a happy new year
and a.... HAPPY NEW YEAR
good tidings to you, wherever you are
good tidings for new year...
and a..... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

and all those having their birthdays in the year 2005!!

happy new year to you...
happy new year to you
happy new year to... whoever
happy new year to you...

happy new year to you!
you were born in the zoo!!... oops... okay!

bettter end here before i start a rave!!

Frail and Feeble...

2 words... Eminem Sucks! he's newest song... or rap is really appaling... running out of steam and motivation i should say. come on bugger... put a sock in it.
anyway, currently taking up a job at an architecture firm. interesting... yet scary. my current boss has given a huge task of designing a housing development for the international patrons down at Labuan... big responsibilty for a lil fry like me... nonetheless... its my opportunity for recognition in the archi scene.
i realized that my new maid... aint good at doing the laundry... clothes kindda stink... not to mention... i realized the same under her arms... ugh... my jeans really smells.

think i better continuethis later... i wanna go eat!!

Dilemma... Oh!

hmmmm... well... Should i blog... or yum cha... think think...

alas... i think i shall yum cha...

(lots happened within these 2 weeks... but... food... i need!!)

Singapore is miles and miles...away

finally back home in Malaysia... bitter sweet memories here... nothing much have changed... cept for new buildings being contructed... and the magnificent fly over that i have to use it everytime i head home from the city... cool...

the wedding was great... it was a sure winner... muacks!! i played safe during my song performance... keeping a low key... man! the crowd was huge...

Anyway! KK is freakin hot and sticky... the weather or dust is killing my nose... i hate it when it happends... green goo coming out from ym nose... that's disgusting!
but i can tell you... the new house is really spacious... can't wait till everything is... 100% really completed... we need mirrors in there!! not to mention... TV... Hi-Fi... more furniture... complete kitchen... et cetera.

whoa... just a news flash.. i've found new love in the voice of stacey kent... lovely.

FAT!!... im FAT!!!

one word to describe me now... FAT!! im fat... oh dear... im fat... really fat... so fat that ur momma cant feed me no more.
everytime i sit down... i can feel this extra belly popping out from my innocent fit body. ironic it is... so fit.. yet so fat. so irritating... ARRRGHH im fat... with a belly... wobbly like jelly!!
anyway, end of semester... (geesh! this belly is really in the way...) im really fat...words could not describe... all these FATS... its causing bad body posture. terrible... really terrible...
anyway! where was i... oh yes! semester... ended... exams over! but still accomodation to settle... re-enrolment to confirm... visa to get... etc... it just never ends!!
anyway... one more day.. then its ASTALAVISTA BABY!!! back to the big ol' dog head!!

love...

okay... 2 down.... one final one to go!! this is awefully dreadful... i cant even spend y last week in melbourne peacefully, instead with the horror of exams and moving place errands. sucky.
had my visual test on monday... it was a breeze... not too bad from what i thought it might had been much tougher. nevertheless the war aint over yet till wednesday.

2 horrible news... one, my team apparently aint second place... instead we're in third. and that means we're in the second final. arrrgh!! terrible!!!! sucky. but thats not too bad... i'm more keen on heading back, then playing this final thingy. nonetheless, i shall give my very best... fight with honour till the very end. CHARGE!!!
but the second news... you've all got to hear this one. the FAT BOY is staying!! terrible!! i can hear my 'free from fat irritating KPO boy' breaking into a million pieces. know the saying, it aint over till the fat lady sings...? well, mine is... its all over now the fat boy stays. he's supposed to be a lil good boy and pack up back to m'sia... do his internship in singapore and go for his supposed operation... and be million miles away!! this is so irritating!!! i really dont wanna see him for another year!!! what is he up to... LEAVE ME ALONE!!! poor samuel... its a test from GOD? why?! nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!

never mind, i shall comfort myself with some other news... ummm... what?!

im going to bed...

8 days more...

one more week and its coming home time!! still i have to surpass my 2 modern B papers next week... dreadful!! oh gee!!
anyway! my team is headed to the finals... we finish in second place of the standings... and we rocked last night. whooped some aussie asses!!

Aussie Cheer: Aussie! aussie! aussie!! oi! oi! oi!!
M'sia Cheer: Boleh... boleh boleh boleh... malaysia Boleh!!

hahha... and also! christmas is just around the corner folks... all that snow, roasted chesnuts... kissing under the missletoe... oh frosty... how i missed you so much!! wonder if Santa knows about my new address...

hmmm... a sneak preview of next months highlighted event... the most anticipated of 'em all!!

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas,
Just like the ones I used to know.
Where the tree-tops glisten,
And children listen
To hear sleighbells in the snow.

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas,
With every Christmas card I write,
"May your days be merry and bright,
And may all your Christmases be white".

i wanna go shopping...

Hooptie doodie doodle

"Moses supposes his toeses are Roses,
But Moses supposes Erroneously,
Moses he knowses his toeses aren't roses,
As Moses supposes his toeses to be!
Moses supposes his toeses are Roses,
But Moses supposes Erroneously,
A mose is a mose!
A rose is a rose!
A toes a toes!
Hooptie doodie doodle
Moses supposes his toeses are Roses,
But Moses supposes Erroneously,
For Moses he knowses his toeses arent roses,
As Moses supposes his toeses to be!
As Moses supposes his toeses to be!
A Rose is a rose is a rose is a rose is
A rose is for Moses as potent as toeses
Couldn't be a lily or a daphi daphi dilli
It's gotta be a rose cuz it rhymes with mose!

First... but no the last...

finally... my first and most hate paper has ended!! ridiculous yet so straight forward... anyway, one down 2 to go!!! woopidoo!!

hmmm... there was a discussion on the table about the creation of a micro genius... ahhh still clearly can remember that at the back of my head. my first micro genius!! Dad brought it home one day... and boy we were so excited!! from that instant we were glued tight unto the screen... my first game!! chip and dale!! awesome...

when that was invented... everyone was so crazy about it... then there was nintendo... longer cassettes... bigger machine... and the joysticks all had simple buttons like A and B... then Sega came along... and then the C button was added in. took me awhile to get use to that extra button... C... pretty useful it should seem. then the ultimate game box came along... play station!! and boy was i confused on the buttons... no more A, B, Cs.... instead there were symbols of a square, triangle, circle... not only that! there was X and Ys!! and now my index finger had of great use for me!! ... years later... nothing improved... until the X-Box arrived... and what the Heck is that?!?!!?! geewizz...

Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head

Raindrops keep falling on my head
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothin' seems to fit
Those raindrops are falling on my head, they keep falling

So I just did me some talkin' to the sun
And I said I didn't like the way he' got things done
Sleepin' on the job
Those raindrops are falling on my head, they keep falling

But there's one thing I know
The blues he sends to meet me won't defeat me
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep falling on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Crying's not for me
Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothing's worrying me

pancakes... and coffee...

wow... hello!! check out my photo album!! more pictures!!
was remembering one of my discussion/ debate on the word Pantat... what does it really mean... apparently in Msia it is a way to describe a female organ... but however in indonesia it means ass... and since i was young i always thought it would be of the latter... until this year... when one of my msian friend told me that it meant of the formal... however my indonesian friend clarified that it was of the latter... and so... hence i am confused. bother.
anyway... i need to hurry off now... need to clean the stove... hehe...

its finally official!! Scottie Pippen has finally decided to close the book on basketball... from the NBA that is. yea... wat a guy... SCOTTIE PIPPEN...
6 time world Champion...
7 time NBA All-Star
one of the NBA's 50 greatest player...
2 time Dream Team representative
endless time of all NBA and Defensive Team
one Time NBA all-star MVP...

tribute to the great one...
Pippen! Scottie pippen!
he's the greatest player in the history!
from the.. town of chicago...
he's got reputation in stealing B's
.... et cetera...
inspired by the flintstone's theme song...

he's the best baller i really modelled after...
unselfish player... steady...
good leadership skills... great team mate
all rounder... cool skills... plays almost every position
and slick lay-ups... in my oppinion.
bother.

Sick at the... Belly...

horrible! been down graded from 2nd to 3rd... damn mayfield... it was a tough game... happy i got away with one win and a tie break... not enough. ugh! i'm feelin' really eeky now... getting car sick these recent car rides... dont know why, but everytime im in the car... really felt like throwing up! looking out of the car makes me sick... and the seat belts just grumbles my tummy/ abs. alrite... just one more away game... and one last car ride... cheers!!
Been rekindering an old friendship... Brian. yea... its been ages since i last heard from him... and finally he's in UK... haha... the last time i saw him was like 2 years ago... and he told me he was going UK then... supposedly. anyway... i suspect he's metrosexual... in fact it goes for all of them siblings... yea... now who's next?
its set!! final presentation on the 29th... not really a presentation... just pinning up my final works... and letting the drawings to the talking... just relieved i've managed to shrug CT3 and modern aside for the moment... STUDIO!! your mine!! anyway... papers all scattered... one on the 8th of november... another tentatively on the 22th... and the final one's on the 24th!! ugh... why hasnt the Head reply my mail... fingers crossed... then its coming home time!! for you all peeps... its on the 27th!! yippie!! oooooOOOHHhhh... roti telur... maggi goreng... cheese naan... wan tan mee... Ringgit food!!
dear me... still feeling abit woozie... i think i'll just puke it right here... right now... 'bleeehhh'...

here's joke...
there was this husband who hated his wife's cat, and wanted to get rid of it...
the next day he took the cat 10 blocks away, and drop the cat and went back...
as he reached home... he saw the lil' critter strolling around...
the next day... he dropped it 40 blocks away...
when he reached home again.. there the cat was... home sweet home.
and so finally he decided... the next day he took the car round the corner
over the river... under the bridge... way pass the hills... cross... the borders...
and finally when thats done... he realised that he didnt know his way back.
so he called home to his wife... and said to his wife: "pass the phone to the lel' bastard... I'm lost!!"
heheh... funny? no?... must be the headache... definitely...

a real hot sunny weather...

2 weeks from now and its DOOMS-DAY!! final submissions for Studio as well as Construction. Presentation went pretty okay... pleased with myself actually- one conclusion: simple building, simple structure, less on the complications. hahah...

anyway... i think i better head off now. studio is probably about to start. managed to get the MAS office address in Melbourne. phew! glad thats settled...

pondering if all can be done by next week... hmmmmm...

anyway, for those of you who need to book a flight and you're traveling with MAS. here's the address in Melbourne!!

15th Floor, Nauru House, 80 Collins Street
Melbourne, VIC, 3003, Australia

and with a quick wrap up... here's a song that's been playing in my head:

............. bzzzzz.................. bzzzz.......... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzB.

Weird Weather..

with christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm... smile at the storm... smile at the storm
with christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm, as we go sailing home!

sailing! sailing home... sailing ... sailing home!!

with christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm... as we go sailing HOME!!!

sam is a wombat. with weird toes... [JM]