Mamaks in melbourne... so-so... Expensive!!

Today is Bee's Birthday... haha sang her a remixed bday song in the email for her... i have a pretty beautiful voice in my mails... anyway yea its exactly a year ago when i last celebrated her bday... we just got to know each other then as well... oh she's so pretty... i think still is the most prettiest gal i've ever known... not to mention funny too!! yea i remembered i sent her like 20 roses... (the most roses i've ever sent to anyone) to her office... yup! 15 Red roses and 5 white roses... haha that was pretty cool...
hmmm just came back from a walk with my RMIT friends... whoa its been awhile since i had conversations on just architecture... all 3 of us just enjoyed each others company basically just discussing the A's to Z's of architecture, and then we walked all the way to my archi faculty to check out the final year students works for inspirations... whoa i tell you, i'll never be bored of staring at their works... every new encounter brings a totally new meaning of perceptions in the drawings... one by one we jsut started analyzing each of the works... beautiful.
hmmm... called 0+1 today... its been a long while since i did, well actually i finally made the call becoz i received an ICQ msg from her saying where am i and long time i never contacted her... and therefor i was obliged to do so... yea she was happy to hear from me... and it was good to hear from her again... hmmm she's leaving to UK next week... thats pretty far away... we had a long chat on the phone... haha she's so funny... from how's life to Sponge Bob square pants... shucks! i really miss that show... i really really do!! its one of the most idioticly funny show... she used to bribe me into hanging out at her place to watch that show... im sooooo easily manipulated by all these cheap entertainment... sad. but im glad we're still friends after we ended the whole thing... its good... i know alot them couples who broke up and became very bitter about the whole issue... i cant do that... i wont feel right and comfortable of ending a relationship as well as a friendship that could still go on...
ANYWAY!! hmmm i wanna go back to kk!! majority of them peeps will be there.... but anyway... i still can have my small gathering with jules at Adelaide... haha... im gonna whip your ass in tennis!!

Memories... Check-mate!!

I was stoning for about half an hour ago... yea... pretty much relaxed.. this weekend, didnt have to do anything with studies... then again i was at the library just randomly browsing at archi books after church... but my life is basically evolve around architecture i guess... its like food to my soul... like the air that i breathe!! its probably gonna be my life for like... forever.
ANYWAY! i think i picked up a new hobby, or actually relived an old past which i sort of gave-up... CHESS!! was playing chess at the library with my church friend... and i literally pulverized him!! hahah!! 2 straight matches!! then again the bugger isnt really a good player la... he hardly new the rules ... and ummm yea... cheap thrill. but i literally trashed him eh... the second match i played till he left just his kin g and his pond... and just fooled around with his king until i finally checkmate him!! ahahaha!!! but last time i always kena trashed by them power players!! probably now im better... hey JUDY!! REMATCH!! this time i can last longer than 3 minutes in the game!! shucks... i played alot when i was younger.. with brian... he's always winning, i mean most of the time... until we swithed to checkers... and that was a diff story... but im not all that bad lar... i beat alvin tan... at the mamaks... actually we never mananged to finish the games... coz everytime im on the verge of winning.. he messes up the whole chess board... sore loser!! whoa i miss the mamaks... so bad... Silva!! Roti bakar telur!!... Ravi!! Roti Kosong!!... Darulsalam... umm used to be maggi goreng!! mmMMmmmMMmmmMMMmm... yea but chess is fun... very intellectual.
hmmm... friended my friend to throw away old memories... yeap... as the whole "ceremony" was going on... it got me thinking of my past of how i got together with my ex... it happened in a really funny way... life really catches you by surprise... yea... it all started like... wait, i think i shouldnt be writing it here... nvm... nvm...
i think i better go start replying mails... hehe.

Greatly inspired!!

Finally... its over... it was a really long week... being the fact that i was so badly yearning for the week to end, then again it was rather short... never enough time to finish all the work!! not really that satisfied with my work... though the model is pretty cool... this is a new record for me, only slept like 10 hours this whole week... im good... eh? i think it'll get worse as time goes by. this is the first time o see lots and lots of students work around all pinned up... unlike back in taylors where there were only a bunch of us... not much surprises there, coz we've been seeing each others work for like the whole semester... but having a big studio... theres room for lots of variety!!
But i was truely inspired by the senior's work!! they were having their presentation at the main atrium... and all the drawings and presentation stuffs... are really really beautiful and refine. i tell you, once i was down there admiring the works... i was really reluctant to go back up to our 3rd year studio... its really embrassing... how much we lack in everything... their photoshop and hand skills are really amazing... and lots of money is really spent on these sort of stuffs... i was told that the average cost per year on just printing is almost around 1000AUD!! crazy! but they are dedicated people... and i was contemplating on how i would be when i get to final year... the drawings are really beautiful!! just thinking about their drawings makes me truely inspired and fortunate that im doing architecture... it really pays off. architecture is just one profession that can drive your creativity... my presentation ended around 6++... but i stayed at the final students gallery just gazing at their magnificent works!! i wanna be like taht NOW!!
now i've really got together what im gonna do during the hols...
1. Refine and do my portfolio
2. re-watch the whole Matrix Trilogy + Animatrix
3. master my photoshop skills
4. study even detail architecture drawings
5. im gonna have my own winter design project... still thinking what to do...
6. re-read my "Architecture- the subject is matter" book
7. Learn this new CAD software... VECTORWORKS!!
8. Visit the architecture here at melb... especially the museums and galleries
9. refine more on my hand sketches
10. and sleep...

haha!! im a really happy man today... not sure why. probably the fact that my design studio is finally over... and was truely mezmerized by the fine articulation of the seniors' works!! wish i could take them home and re-read through all the drawings... nolar i just want their SKILLS!! since im so happy... i shall sing you all a song!!

If your happy and you know it clap your hands, CLAP CLAP CLAP x2
if your happy and you know it and you really wanna show it, if your happy and you know it clap your hands!!
if your happy and you know it stomp your feet! STOMP STOMP STOMP x2
if your happy and you know it and you really wanna show it, if your happy and you know it stomp your feet!!
if your happy and you know it... ummm... dig your nose! DIG DIG DIG
if your happy and you know it then till it bleeds! BLEED BLEED BLEED
if your happy and you know it and you really wanna show it if your happy and you know it let your nose bleed!!
EVERYBODDY!! if your happy and you know it take a fart... FART FART FART x2
if your happy and you knwo it and you relly really wanna show it, if your happy and you know it take a FART! POOT POOT!!
Whats making me even more happy is... BEN is back!! its been a long time... that jiwang sailor boy... hahah!! i must call him... hope to see him in dec... hmmm its been a long time since WE've had a reunion eh peeps?!... haha... unfortunately we still cant do it end of this year... ;-(

okay... now im feeling sleepy... must be the typings...


btw, SPIDERMAN 2 is coming soon!! more reasons to smile and be excited and happy!! June 30th!! i cant wait!! and im happy! coz im going to Singapore end of the year to visit my frind studying there... umm at some uni... i will try and find his UNI!! wont be hard... i hope.

Panda Eyes... in a Sleepless Building, with A muffin for breakfast!!

Whoa! its 6:20am... back at the lab again... was at the studio touching up my model and taking photos... the model is... big. there was only one word that could describe it when people saw the model... which is.. "jesus.." probably they saw jesus as they gazed upon my model... so i guess its true what Mies Van der Rohe says that "GOd is in the DETAILS"
i really hope i can get atleast a H2 for my studio... it be just unfair... and unjustified if i dont... then again... probably there are others who did much more and much much better than me... like my other hard-working tute mates...
Was washing my face in the toilet... almost couldnt recognize the person in the mirror... those huge balck panda eyes were enormous... so i decided to play with my panda eyes on the mirror... opening my eyes as big as i could... making scary faces... but then it got abit too creepy... and so i stopped...

its really cold today... its raining outside... i'll be freezing if i were to walk home right now... its a good thing i met a new friend today... he's a vietnamese... and his name is... Pham Man Viet... cool eh? good to have company, once awhile i'll go check on him and his drawings... and just be praising his brilliance of fine drawn lines. it took him awhile before he could get my name right... and in the end he still couldnt... so i told him to just call me Sam... da man!! yeap... he's whacked too!! all hand drawings!! but atleast he's not required to do a model... but man hand drawings take a really long time to finish... respect, respect... im not so bad either lar... im using CAD... hand drawings and a model... quite POWER also... ;-)
the Archi Building is me second home... and the people in it are my family... whoa... this building never sleeps!!

Its Raining.. its Pouring... I look so Appalling.

trying to put songs in my head now... its really hard to do work in silence, especially when your dead sleepy and very very very very very very very very very very very very very.... sien. well i manged to get 6 hours of sleep tis morning...from 6-12... however it stll seems not enough... bought myself a whole box of UNCLE TOBY's nutri bars... 6 diff flavours...and ofcoz blueberry muffin!! oh yummy dummy funny!! i assume i'll be stuck in the labs for the night i guess... and later go over to the studio to take photos of the model... (oh gee... my singaporean friend has left the building, he was good company) again... misery loves company... just like the song by the Moffats (wonder what happened to them):

Misery is what I feel
When you're not around
So I can't heal
Misery is what I feel
Is what I feel....

i realised that med students are rather different from archi student in an outward look appearance... i was on the way to the med library to deliver some stuffs to my friends, and on the way pass by a series of med buildings... and all these funny aliens passing me by... they all looked different... the guys are much cleaner and well shaved, where the gals are relatively petite and short... as i was heading back to the archi building... things got pretty much familiar... tall stoned people eluding around... un-shaved faces... messy hair... bla bla... its a faculty culture thing i guess.
Heck! why didnt God make me good looking!! so i could mesmerize my tutor to make things easier for me... with those good looks and charm... probably i could get her to do some of the drawings... and presentation tips!! im really desperate eh? okila!

yea... sorry about you peeps! i'll get those email replys ASAP... probably right after this week... yea anton! sorry bout me delays in the mails...

im sleepy...

Subways... to mothers...

Taking a break from model making... hehe.. its almost done there... 'cept i realised that i forgot to buy the sort of glue that is used to join perspects together! IDIOT!! such an IDIOT!! by-golly sam.. you better pull yourslef together but i have to finish this model by today/ this morning... i guess i'll have to resolve this glue thing to other alternatives... shucks... awW man the printer isnt working either! this is terrible.. first no glue.. second i cant print out my drawings to make the model...Gosh! this is terrible!! "always look on the bright side of life... " (taking the advice from my sister's colleague... haha!)
but there were glimpses of bright sides in life today... firstly! i went for the tennis try-outs thing... and guess what! i made it to the team!! WOOHOO! this is so awesome... not playing for 2 months.. i pretty much sucked on the court... but i guess the president who knew me from the tournament i join early in the year, trusted my skills...ma cat skills!! yea baby! uhuh! uhuh! bring it down!! plus went i reached there, immediately they called me to play games before i even got to warm up... and i think im starting to develop some night vision problems... it was abit hard to see the ball at times... ughh... the spot lights flashing too brightly... but it was cool lar... atleast i came through... not bad not bad... then i met a new friend.. he's an indian... a very funny guy... indians are generally funny, i dunno why, i find them rather amusing... plus he's nice... the sort of "what you see is what you get" sort of person... which i feel totally comfortable talking with... in addition to his natural humouristic personality.
well the second thing i should be thankful with is this time i ate my dinner... and therefor not as hungry as i was yesterday... then again... its still early in the night... i'll probably be starving around 4-5am when i reach home... this time i shall close my eyes when i walk pass Gloria Jeans Coffee house... its tentalizing!!
yea... but this morning when i woke up... i never felt so angry and frustrated... i was soooooooooooooooo unhappy to wake up... probably was becoz i was still tired and the fact the first thing that came to mind was STUDIO!! but after i took a piss and bugged my housemates... it was all cool...
im all so energized today... happy that i will be getting even more playing time since i made it into the team... ugh! hope im not gonna end up being some sort of waterboy... it wont happened! hmmm the tournaments are held next semester... i'm thinking next semester's gonna be heck of a busy one... involvement in LTC, Tennis... and if im taking up modern architecture as my elective subject... thats gonna add on to my hefty load... wonder if i should take up a job.
speaking of which, my mom wants to read my blocks as well... should i? or shouldnt... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. thinking, thinking, thinking...

Anyway, heres a mother's song i bet most you cant remember...
Ibu, ibu engkaulah ratu hati ku
bila ku berduka
engkau hiburkan selalu
ibu, ibu... engkaulah ratu hatiku!!

Tired but Reluctant...

Finally back home from uni...its really cold walking outside at 5pm... and on the way home, i walked by a cafe... and there were lots of pastries and cakes and yummy delicious food being displayed!! i was so hungry.. being the fact that i skipped dinner... and i thought that food would be on the table when i reach home... sadly no. but thank goodness i have the cereals my neighbour had pass to me!! hallelujah!!
hmmm... was doing my final model in the studio... not really pleased at myself... well i couldnt manage to get perspects (plastic glass)... i would had finish 80% of my model if it werent for the unavailability of them perspects... shucks! and man i think this is the most expensive model i've ever done!! actually my model's cost are getting higher and higher... last year the total cost of my model was around RM100... this time its around 40AUD... thats around RM130.. not adding to the perspects that i am going to buy... those things cost a bomb!
Well... later tonight is gonna be the tennis try-outs!! woohoo... cant wait... hope i have enough energy to play.... yea, the reason i came back was so that i could collect my tennis gear over to uni, and as well take a short nap... if not i think i would rather stay at uni to finish up the other rest of my works... ugh!! 4 more days!!!!! hmmm if every thing goes according to plan... i think i should be able to finish on time... lets just hope so...
AhhHHHhhh... finally... food in me tummy... now i can sleep...

very... DISTURBED.

bombarding myself with julie andrews beautiful songs... her songs are nice... easy to sing as well... did you know that when you know the notes to sing, you can sing most anything?? yea i must master the art of Do-Re-Mi... and i learn that with just a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down? in the most delightful way!! oh yes... did you know that you wont get diabetes by eating too much sugar? of coz you didnt... well its true!! i know.
anyway, i've decided to go for the try-outs on tuesday... i mean, its a once in a lifetime thing... so i better seize the opportunity and get some extra game time... yea, since i'll probably be at uni... no harm there taking a break to play abit of ball... i miss playing tennis... its been really awhile... all me tennis kakis are too pre-occupied with their non athletic lifes... hmm thats sad... but mayb i can make new kakis that night... and beat everyone in the tennis club!! i'll be king of the courts!!
mmm... just 5 more days before my final presentation... just the thought if it is more than i can bare... its like splinter in my head... dreaming and always daydreaming about it... this morning i was forced to wake up early... as i kept on thinking about how to do my presentation layouts... ugh!
What the heck am i doing typing this... back to work! back to work!! time is precious!! if i wanna have a clear mind when playing ball... really feel like knocking my head onto the wall right now... hmmm im facing one right now.... hmmmmmmmmmm.... *strokes chin sinisterly...*

Tennis... or Studio??

Well the chestnuts are roasting on an open fire... and jack frost is disturbingly nipping at my nose... i checked my mail today... oh yes, and yuletide carols are being sung by a choir outside where them folks are all dressed up like eskimos. received a mail from the tennis club... so i guess, everybody knows whats a turkey and some mistletoe, it sort of helps to make the season bright... and those lil tiny tots... with their eyes on the glow! they will probably find it hard to sleep tonight. they are having try-outs this coming TUESDAY!! did you know that Santa's on his way? guess what! he's loaded lots of toys and goodies on his sleigh.. Yum yum!! I wanna go!! but i've got work to do!! this is making every mother's child to secretly spy... being nosy to see if a reindeer can really know how to fly!! now im deciding now if i should go... hmmm yea well, i supposed i'll offer you a simple phrase... to all you kids from 1 years old way up to 99 years old... its only for one night, once in a lifetime... although its likely been said many times many ways... Happy Birthday to CVK...
La... La... la la la la la la ..... Bla bla bla... black sheep...
ANYWAY!! yea well i guess i'll offer you once again a simple phrase... Why oh why must it be at this sort of time.... ranging from you peeps from 99-1 years old... even-though its been overly use and very commercialized... i'll shall meditate on this... lots of times in many many different ways... EAT YOUR VEGGIES!! Please DO....

A One Sided Affair of... Tingles and Chemistry...

Misery loves company... yeap back in the CAD labs again... haha but this time ive got company... pulled in another archi friend of mine... yea its different working with someone... on and off we check on each others progress and theres communication going on... when a problem occurs in the drawing, you wont need to stress yourself figuring out how to solve it alone... 2 brains are better than one eh?! of coz. then again shes not really much of an expert in CAD as well.. so urmmm we'll be contemplating on the problem and the conclusion would usually be... "i dont think they would notice that anyway..." but now shes gone... and im back to being the lone ranger...
received a mail from my bro's gf... and she was explaining to me about that you can be very close to a person but sparks just may not happen... relating to what my bro explains to her... "its all about Chemistry..." interesting... and then the rest of the mail was about my bro... duh! so loved...
WOOHOO!! congrats to the WOLVES!! their in the conference finals!! managed to whip them sacramento to pieces... it was a slim win there... but a win is just enough for me... hpoe the lakers wont bring in much trouble for them to get the championship.... oh i wish Kobe was pleaded guilty and sent off to jail... and he wont be able to make it for the games.. hehe... (i shouldnt curse here.. forgive me) this would be all truely interesting if the finals is to be Wolves againsts the Nets... either one to win would be great!! hahah!!! im so happy!! 32 points and 21 rebounds from KG... its just spectacular!! worthy of the MVP title... not to mention 4 steals and 5 block shots!! Even jordan cant produce these sort of stats... step aside "legend"... WOOPIDOO!!
todays the last day of tute for theories... and it was a memoriable one... i loved the whole discussion, besides me just sitting there and listening... my tutor made so much sense in architecture... not needing to be so pragmatic on the designs... you dont need any meaning in your architecture... and best yet... Screw the idealism of FORM FOLLOW FUNCTION!! its all bullshit!! architecture is irrelevant and we should do it to satisfy only for ourselfs... heck i dont need to put toilets in my design... let them just pee on the trees in my garden!! and BUZZ OFF you crappy philosophers whom has no what-so-ever idea on architecture yet writes so much about it... your not in our shoes, so just shut up.. and in french TAIS TOI!!!
OH LA DE DA... this is fun... heck what am i doing here.. i should just stop studying and jsut start my own practice... really cant wait to graduate, then i wont have to be bounded by the walls of academia... being restricted by our design tutor's rules and "philosophies" of how a building design should be and not... TOTAL FREEDOM!! i can do whatever i want... i can design my kitchen on the roof, my bedroom on the car porch and NO TOILETS!!

So long, FAREWELL...

im feeling very sleepy... yet im still up doing the CAD drawings... somethings wrong here... usually i can go for hours... non stop... but lately getting tired very easily, i wanted to just stay over night at the CAD lab actually... but later i felt im losing inspiration, plus i've got classes in the morning... wish i could just pause all of time... so i can happily do my work... and just unpause it when im done...
bump into my good friend online... ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR "PHOTOCOPYING" TEST!! haha... apparently he and my ex mails each other... hmmm mayb i should give her a buzz jst to see whats been happening... better give my warm blessings to her before she leaves for the UK... which is pretty soon. apparently jules mails alot of ppl, the least expected ppl tat i never tot he would be keeping in touch... i on the other hand is lagging on my mail replies... ugh... ive got tonnes of unreplied mails up till now... havent got the ummph to reply them these few weeks... i usually love to type emails... and just let my fingers do the talking and type whatever that comes through my veins to my fingers... i think one reason for my unenthusiasm for writing mails could be becoz of blogging... more occupied in updating my blogs then replying them (as you can see right here...). but i will get back to them mails ASAP... one day... someday... soon.
im really not in the mood to draw anymore lines... and i've got like 6-7 more essays to write... 300words per piece... i think i might skip the 9am lecture... and do stuff *crossing fingers*... but i would definitely not miss theories!! its the grand finaly of all lectures... and its about "Deconstruction"... currently the most popular "style" in architecture... apparently you cant actually catergorized deconstruction... because if you DO, it wont be called deconstruction.. because deconstruction has no really any identity... its style-less... but since it has no name for this... they still end up naming it as deconstruction... sounds like a frivolous sort of architecture... but its interesting... the architect-daniel lebiskind, whom design the Jewish museum is a sort of deconstructivist... as well as frank gehry... well he used to be lar. all this excitement is giving me inspiration to continue drawing lines... cant wait to see whats the video about... hmmm my yawn just gave away all that inspirations... shucks... such a pity... *YAWN*

a Noisy library... Broken Streak?

shucks... all the CAD labs are being occupied.. hmmm guess i'll have to wait for openings... but i guess it'll b very hard to grab hold of one since its the ending of the semester and usually the seniors get the priority... darn seniors!! haha...
ANYWAY, on the way to uni, i bumped into my neighbor... its funny, yesterday while i was on the way to the supermarket, i thought i might catch her at the library since it was on the way... apparently not. hmmm in a paradoxical manner i guess its always like that... you'll usually bumped into ppl when you least expected... and usually always fail to during intentional meets... but today may seem to be the day of unexpected meetings... on the way to my faculty again i bumped into 2 of my old college mates... they were just loafing around outside their engineering faculty... its been awhile since i've seen them... yea so i had to hang around and listen to their sarcasm comments on my grown hair... like " oh?! u can grow hair??"... and "shouldnt your hair be golden now? its autumn..." they were really fascinated on my hair being reasonably long... i mean all those years in college, i kept my hair relatively short... to the extent of no hair at times... haha
its a good thing i brought extra work to do... as i wait for openings in the CAD labs... i might get back to this later...

taking a break from staring at lines... ugh! line after line after line... and the worse part is... im rearranging my design... so as im drawing, im figuring out what to change and stuff... hmmm just cant wait to finish this up and my model and just end this whole semester... oki. back to work!!

matilah sia kali ini.... !!
feeling really intimidated by them folks sitting up front of me... shucks! their 3d is damn CUN!! and those photoshop skills... envy... envy...

Swimming in the rain... eating bananas

i think im falling sick here... this is such a bad time to get sick... especially when i need to get work done.. hmmm hope i did not get the germs from my mentor through the phone... anything is possible!! shucks... getting tired easily and my throat is itching.. Oh God! pls not let it be tonsils again... i seem to have this tonsil problem at the very age of 10... having a swollen and infected tonsil it was really irritating... and it was really painful to talk when i was younger... kind of regretted not having that operation to get rid of it... well my mom was thiking of removing my tonsils... but apparently she change her mind thinking it wont be so bad when i get older... hmmm it still haunts me from time to time... and i have to really be careful with my throat... i usually like to drink really hot water.. let it slide through my throat hoping it'll melt and kill the germs lingering around there... well it works sometimes... but sometimes i think i burnt my throat for that... but its always soothing every time i gulp the hot water down when i have tonsil problem... a great sensation of thinking the germs are really being burnt to death!! that was then... then again i still do that now... i mean its a normal reflex thinking to do it... anyway just hope it isnt tonsil problems again. *cough*
it was a rainy day today... and so i went swimming... haha.. actually decided to go for a swim to get my mind off certain things... annoying thoughts... yeap, and so i did... swims are always good... for me it sometimes takes me away from reality to be or pretend to be something or just ease myself from problems and stress... i remember when i was younger, my bro, neighbours and i go to the club for swims... and we all love to pretend that we're all dragon ball characters, flying up in the sky... fighting each other with our so called powers... it was so much fun... and sometimes half way through we see yellow liquids rising up to the surface from my neighbor's bro, he's just so lazy to get up and do his thing in the toilet... eeEWW.. but uses them liquids for his powers, attempting to spray on us... disgusting...then when im swimming with my siblings only... i use to pretend that i was a shark... (Jaws was popular then) and attacked them... hahah!! when im in the pool, i like to imagine myself as a fish... wondering around just swimming aimlessly.... hmmm yea then later we all hurried into the sauna to burn our fleshes with the heat we kept adding steam till the whole place was all misty... sat there till our moms wanted to leave...
while swimming... i was reminiscing when i was training in the junior swim team... that was tiring... our coach- uncle johnny (or so we called him), was a nightmare on us... but i hate it when we had to train together with the gals... so embarrassing when the gals were ahead of us... it was humiliating... then again we were young and the gals at that particular time had longer legs than us guys... they we're taller... ugh! right now... my swimming standards are really sucky... i cant even remember how to do my fave swim style... the "butterfly"... that was my specialty then... ironically it is the only style that i cant do now... i remember i was always competing with this other indian gal who was one of my mom's good friends daughter... we actually came in together... man she was quick... always wondered if she had fins... wanted to slice them off to prevent me from falling into embarrassment... but i did have my share in wins lar... later on we got splited so we couldn't really compete... i was dumped into the other pool doing butterflies... and she was in breast stroke and free style... hahah but i sure loved the after training... we get to eat goreng pisang!! oh yummy!!
ahhh... Enya has the most beautiful voice in the whole world... she brings so much hope and really sooths my soul at ease...

Truly... Madly... Deeply...

Hari ni... aku tengok wayang... lucunya ni filem perancis ni... tak boleh tahan ketawa ni... ahahah
tadi aku chatting sama kawan sia di msia... dia ni teruk... bersembang tentang peristiwanya di hospital... (susahnya aku type ni melayu... banyak vocab aku dah lupa ni... best sia campur sama ingeris)... oki... dia ni inspek scroctum laki... gross nya ni... aku pun tak selesa dengar. blek!
tak berapa banyak aktiviti hari ni... kebanyakan masa lepak di rumah aje... kononya buat assignment... tapi... adakalanya di dapur.. bersihkan dapur... teruk nya... kotornya ni dapur... aku pun susun semula barang-barang... bosan lar... nak bersihkan tandas lagi... tapi aku control!! mesti habiskan aissgnment... haha sebelum tangok wayang!!
hmmm... adakah platonik ni betul betul benar...? seorang individu berapat dengan seseorang.. tapi tak adalah emosi "cinta" berlaku... seumur hidup... inin sangat susah nak percaya ... jika seorang berapat dengan kawannya yang berlainan seks... mestilar bintang-bintang berlaku.. eh? aku tak tahu lar... ini hal yang aku tak nak berfikir dengan dalam... tak nak komplikasikan hidup sia ni... selagi sia pun belum jatuh dalam masalah yang rumit... haha aku ni masih kool... tapi pernah kawan sia ceritakan halnya dengan kawannya yang kononnya platonik... oleh tu aku tiba-tiba saja terfikir semula perbualan tu...
esok ni... aku mesti mula dengan studio sia... hanya tinggal lebeh kurang 2 minggu aje...
inilah sia nak berkongsi sikit ilmu tentang fotografi...
apakah ni fotografi?? haha....
a photograph is invisible... deriving from a play not with form but with time... isolating... preserves... and presents a moment taken from a certain time. which by means a photograph fixes the memory in a static and single image that doesnt change... however with time... photographs would become ambigous in their memories... looking at a photograph taken and displayed in an exhibition... theres a 101 meaning that can be derived from there... and the only true meaning can only be from the photographer themselves or the witneses... a photgraph as well can reveal what is invisible to the human eye.... bringing out things that werent seen before... eyes might not have focused before... ugh!! ini memang bosan... mungkin aku ni letih lagi.. dah mula merepek... dahlah... pergi mandi dulu...

feeling.... cant think properly... ugh!

Called my mentor/ discipler just now... its been awhile since ive reported to him on my doings... haha.. but it was good to hear from him again... apparently the tables have turn, the last time we met before i headed off to aussie i was badly ill... now its his turn to be sick... ANYWAY, well we had a long chat on stuff... glad to hear my church in KL is really growing... almost every week people are getting saved... it was basically after their 40 days of fast and prayer that things started to really grow... awesome... and people back there are coming up... already 2 of my friends are now cell leaders... thats really interesting... when i get back i must go see whats been up. cant wait to go back and meet everyone... i feel so refreshed now... after the long chat... and listening to words of wisdoms and a really long prayer on the phone...
minds really been bleak for awhile, but these past 2 days has been really mind easing... and tomorrow im gonna watch "tetua"... yeap its a french film!! and "tetua" means... Shut-up!! haha... sounds interesting eh...
was at the library today...again... after church... just trying to finish up on my readings... but this time we decided to try studying in a new environment... so we went to the chess room to study... not much of a difference actually... but i guess there was no harm on a lil change of venue...
ugh... im really struggling to tyoe this blog... must be really sleepy... well better not force myself here... i wanna sleep... been yawning the whole day... for no good reason why... i think my neighbour was a lil annoyed by that... anyway...

Smoke on the water...

Taking a break... ugh! had a real nice hot shower today... wonderful! and the whole bathroom was all steamy... yeap... and so i had to sing the song 'misty'... i mean the bathroom was all misty... it was the perfect scenario to sing it!! yeap...
ANYWAY, todays morning lecture ended an hour earlier than usual... so we had ample time to relax and get a cup of coffee before our next lecture... and we did just that... actually this was the first time that we did went for coffee before lectures... it was nice... went to some cafe in the campus... sat in some courtyard area... under a huge big old tree... and basically telling jokes!! oh it was really lame jokes... but funny... heres one...

once there was this guy who looks like a potatoe
he was walking... and then he fell
so he cried...

not funny?? how bout this one...

once there was this ghost
and he was riding a motorcycle
and he had an accident
and so he died.

now that one must had really got you laughing... eh? hahaha well the first one i admit is terrible.. but the second one is really a heart stopper!! ghost... die... hahah!!
todays lecture was about technology and the impacts on architecture... or something like that... and thus i have made a conclusion!
Technology always will fail, because of discontentment and unsatisfactions, its arrival is being ignored.
but you have to give a lil more credit to technology... though its been failling... its still progressing... huh?
Bumped into my cousin today at uni... mmm shes really grown up now... i like to read her so called "editions"... yea.. anyway she was asking me about winter hols... hmmm shes going skiing... kewl! yea... now ive got another winter activity... maybe. when i told her i might be going to adelaide... she was like "adelaide?! what for??"... ouch!
ive got another one...
J: So where were you at during the holidays?
S: adelaide
J: at the lake? mmm... interesting
S: yea it was!!
J: really? how was it?
S: well... people there are friendly and the food aint too bad
J: AT THE LAKE??
S: yeap...
J: must be a really big area
S not really... melbournes much bigger
J: but melbourne's a city
S: you're right, can be comparing that to a city
J: yea, so where is this place?
S: south aussie
J: must be very cold at the lake
S: not too bad... melb's colder
J: true... so did you catch any fishes over at the lake?
S: fishes? oh you mean "fishes" hehe... nope. not much choices there
J: oh? fishes very small there... eh?
S: not really... there some really big ones as well.. quite a number
J: then why didnt you?
S: big fish? you kidding? nolar... why would i wanna hook up a fish from some other place
J: see what you mean... u need license huh?
S: something like that...
J: i'll go there and check 'em out myself
S: yea... all the best to ya!
J: if i do catch one... i'll show it to ya...
S: just hope the fish wont eat you alive!!
J: haha.. good one there... we'll have a feast!!
S: cool... well thats adelaide for you
J: yea... at the lake...
S: so where did you go for the hols??
J: Darwin...

haha... sigh... okay back to work!!
S:

Endless Nights... with a Genius

And so it begins... the sleepless nights... big panda eyes... and stressful zits... ugh!! probably wont be sleeping these 2 nights... got a huge presentation this friday... just had my shower and taking a break to drink me MILK... well the only reason i am online is because one my juniors needed my help on some archi stuffs, funny that she's asking me on computer CAD things as well... im the least expert when it comes to CAD im more in the manual side... everyone in my house knows how to bring up a power 3D CAD drawing and me? still using a pen and pencil for that, not that im totally illiterate on CAD but i just prefer manual and since i use manual more often, im quite left behind at certain things, then again being a genius would be a breeze for me to catch up (self praise is no praise)... i feel so important... thousands of kilometres away and people from msia still need my help.... reminds me of the times when i was in Taylor's college... going on visits with my program director to the juniors studio to check their works out.. then always at hand for consultations... i had so much respect then.
it was a good thing i was at the library today... to realised such a genius i am!! yes... was figuring out how to tackle some of my design's problems... trying to enhance the beauty and functionalizing the spaces... woohoo!! i manged to figure it out in the end... at the very last minutes before the library was closing!! hmmm... now its just putting the pieces together into drawings... and model...
ANYWAY... heres another of my... whatevers...

Vision- had and will always be blurred, by the infidelity of mankind, by the dissatisfaction of life, by 'others' that dissillusion and confuses our perceptions, by our own endeavours to seek in clouding our own world to a greater extent

Females and libraries...

Was in the library today... man! females can be really disruptive... i was sitting at a table studying... along came this gal to join me at the table to do her work... *bang bing boom!!* throws her books on the table... it shooked the whole table... i nearly tot the table lamp was going to fall right on me... then as she sits... she bangs her hands on the table... opens her book in a brutally manner... flips the pages like it had insulted her mother or something... yea... well she didnt really studied i guess... coz half the time her head was on the table.... "meditating"... yea after half an hour she realised that she be better off sleeping at home then at the library... an hour later another gal comes by and sits at the table... again... *bang bing BOOM* this was worse... she really had something going on with her books... oh geez! and being slightly bigger... the forces she inflicts on the table was much more brutal.... no offence but these bitches should have more consideration when they wanna study at a table with someone else... but it was no wonder... Honkies...
ANYWAY... was reading a feminist text today (wonder whats with me and females)... very interesting... it was about females and architecture... these bunch of feminist and their weird art pieces on how the world perceives woman... they related females as plastic bags... this particular lady who does funny art works likes to use plastic bags as her materials... well, figuratively plastic bags were an overlooked by-product, discarded after use... and how plastic protects...but only temporarily it contains but has no fixed form... a sort of translucent and opaque skin (which is true in a way most guys only see them females on the transparent side of things- nude). yea... the text was talking about women having no identity in this planet where it is dominated by men... yet it is the women who brings these men into the world... and how women live in a masculine world where the architecture was suited actually for men and as a result have to try seek dwelling from within... heres one of the concept of "pretty"- women must be nude because she is not situated, does not situate herself in her place. her clothes, her makeup, and her jewels are the things with which she tries to create her container(s), her envelope(s). she cannot make use of the envelope that she is, and must create artificial ones. hmmm... then it went on in describing an art piece that intended to signify how WOMEN is just a mere surface... feminity is masquerade... but the feminist tries to defy that... and prove feminine is more than a flat surface... the art piece was a women made of plastic bag hung on to a coat hook... symobolizing to be left there until her services is needed... the plastic bag represents the female as a strange sort of protection, and being empty on the inside... she begs a fitting for someone to try her on... to fill in the gaps... then it goes on and on... explaining the other art pieces and theoretical texts on a worldly view on females... really interesting... the art works are really intriguing... in some ways i guess its true... on how women are perceived... being transparent unacknowledge of their existents... they are gloomed in a certain opaquesity from achieving equality with the male genders. this is very paradoxical but i guess its just how things are... am i making any sense here? probably not... hope im not offending anyone...

Nightmares... and Vanilla flavoured yogurt

Todays a real chillin day... BRRrrRRR... cant wait for my socks to arrive... its got lil toes... hehe. YEAP! had my haircut today... this morning... i was a lil restless at home just figuring out how to do my assignment... so i decided to just go for a short walk and while doing that i'll just get a haircut... yeap... hairs pretty neat now... its been awhile since i've gone to a saloon/ barber shop to cut my hair... since i've gotten that shaver, i had been self servicing my hair ever since... yea... well, stepped into the saloon... i think he was an italian... he didnt sound aussie. we'll he talks alot... man.. non stop asking questions and telling lil stories of his previous asian clients... but at one point the conversation got pretty good... it went like this:

Barber: So how old r u?
me: 21...
Barber: oh?! (looked very stun) u dont look your age...
me: oh?
barber: i tot u was 17 years old...
me: really?! thats... good..
barber: u do look young...

oh yes... i LOVE melbourne... people here are just so honest!! unlike in msia... they just be jealous of your youthful looks and wanna bring u down with them... by their lies!!
I went to the library today... it was cold... ummm i wore shorts... wonder what i was thinking... brain freeze!!
my mind is in a blur state today... stress on assignments... i dunno how to do!! plus im having nightmares on assignment results... i dreamt about my theories assignment!! i got back the results and i got 1% out of 30% it was aweful!! the site of seeing my results was horrible... in addition to that.. the back page of the assignment was a whole list of why i deserved to get what i got... terrible!! it was SOOOO real!!! ugh.. just thinking of it now gives me the creeps... this would be very sad if it really comes true!!... NOOOO!!!!!!!
well... atleast i bought yogurt to comfort myself... vanilla flavour... yummy... yes. and tomorrow im going to the library again... this time i must be able to figure out how to do that assignment!! no nightmares!!!!!

*deary me... my housemate she can really snore... its really manly... coming form a lil skinny gal like her... all the demons and anger within... scary...*

Momma you know I LOVE YOU...

First and foremost i would like to congratulate KG!! for winning the MVP award... its a bout time he does so... to me i think he is one of the best player in the NBA... Yea, currently im more on the WOLVES side in winning a championship... the NETS are really sad case... if they could pull out some wins... i might consider them back... plus the WOLVES has more enthusiasm for the game... its been a great season for them this year... finsihing top in the league having an MVP player and all... a championship would be just what they need to put the icing on the cake!! GO WOLVES!! WOOHOO!! hmmm im thinking of getting a KG jersey... wonder if i've got any friends at Minnesota...
Mothers day... church was quieter than usual... well we were missing one of our friend... me and "Bear" looked at each other after church realizing its awefully different without "Cat"... but the kids were adorable... up stage singing for the mothers... hahah! reminds me of the time i was at sunday school... i was quite a prejudice then... was usually more active and sporting when it was my parents shift being in charge of sunday school service... haha... back then sometimes my dad leads in the praise and worship sessions... we use to sing from scrolls... actually it was songs written on a big piece of cloth... and like for the songs on that sunday... all the sheets would be clipped together... easier to flip over... yea and during special occasions like mothers and fathers day, christmas... we would have to go to the main service to perform... usually singing... and it was always terrible... well i think so... but the adults thought it was cute... and we all being so adorable was more than enough for their entertainment...
Called mom later that evening... wasnt really a great day for her... mothers day didnt actually felt like mothers day... my brother didnt wish her... sad sad... both him and my dad was too occupied with the Thomas Cup... yea, but my mom was glad that i called... and my sister as well... i guess us people being far away from home would always know how to appreciate these events more than the ones close by in their comfort zones... yea.. then me and my mom was discussing on how small the world is... apparently i just found out that the parents of my Pastor of the church here goes to my home church in KK... and he's actually one of my friends cousin... oh wow!! really old cousin... coz my friends only 19 this year... and my pastor is like in his early 30s... but yea... and all along his parents had been sitting right in front of my parents at church... haha... ironic?
HAHA... was talking to one of my good buddy... and he was asking me of my winter holiday plans... and he suggested Adelaide... Woopidoo!! im going to ADELAIDE!! well probably for a week... or maybe less... i mean, umm how exciting can Adelaide be.. heheh no offence... but yeap... im still thinking about it... and managing my $$ for it... this is gonna be FUN!! this reminds me... ive gotta get more warm clothing... winter is just around the corner... better be prepared... since i've lost weight... dun think i have much fats to keep me warm.
Mondays... its prayer meet... and im going to the library to study!! yeap... and im thinking of a haircut... hmmm we'll see... we'll see...